Punggung seorang Pria: Tarian dalam gelap

alunan nada penuh ilusi terus berputar

mengiringi setiap lekuk tubuh sang penghibur

senyum menghibur luka terus terpancar dari

wajah yang bersinar meskipun matahari tidak mau menyinarinya

tanpa pernah berhenti terus bergerak

setiap keringat yang jatuh menjadi sebuah harga

untuk sepotong daging

mengisi perut yang menangis

kaki penuh sayat yang menjadi saksi kerasnya sebuah persaingan

untuk mempertahankan nilai warisan

dan mencari nasi

tetaplah menari meskipun dalam gelap

karena akan selalu ada cahaya yang menerangi mata hati

menerangi setiap langkah

sebuah lilin harapan yang tak pernah padam untuk kalian wahai penari jalanan...

yang terus menari meski dalam gelap

*puisi ini didedikasikan untuk semua penari jalanan yang tidak pernah lelah menari dan selalu bersyukur atas hidupnya. Salute to STREET DANCER all over the world. my respect.

Punggung seorang Pria: Punggung itu pun berkisah

Dia yang berjalan ditengah kegelapan malam
mendengar bisikan angin yang menemani sepi harinya
matanya terus menghadap ke tanah mencari tau apa saja yang sudah dia lewati
mahluk mahluk malam disekitarnya menjadi saksi
bagi punggungnya yang lebar
menanggung beban dunia
setiap luka yang muncul
terjahit dan terukir di punggungnya
menjadi sebuah memori pahit
namun juga manis
semua cerita terukir

semua cerita tergores
di punggung yang lebar
menjadi sebuah kaset rekaman perjalanan hidup seorang putra adam

mengahadapi hari yang brutal

setiap darah

setiap keringat

yang jatuh akan tetap terlukis didalam punggung yang rapuh

Buried Hope

Today i wake up without any expectation

spent my whole life without her shadow anymore

day by day

night by night

i walk alone in my shadow

lost in time

drown in my insanity

loose you

drowned you

in endless sea

but now you call me

in gloomy day

when i learn to forget

you...

you pull me again into this madness

you force me to dig again

the hope that i buried

God i dont know

is this your scenario for me

give me yout light

give me your shine

accompany me trough this valley of the darkness

teach me to heal my bleed soul

i wish you always walk with me

i believe you never let me walk alone in circle of madness

show me what she wants

show me....

and teach me...

Broken Wood

Losers walk with shame in his bloody back

leave the ring that spit on his face

and blitz tear apart his pride

the wounds seems can't heal

by time

he watch the empty cup

remember when the pride day

and now the world leave him alone

in madness and hate

but its aint over till is over

there is always a hope

though is hard to reach

dont let the world smack you

rise above hate

run into the typoon

baptism by fire

and get the world again

He's Down

He's down into piece

bleed n crushed

blind with madness

and hopeless

sink into deep

dark sea

lost in time

he's lost his fang

broken by whisper

she blows into

when he's laying on her dream

she's burn everything into ashes

spread it in hopeless sea

crushed everything he built for her

into dust

and leave him dying on her foot

begging for water of hope

when she and the world leave him in

mad world

his only hope is finger of God

touch his heart and mind

shine his way again

and face the world once again

rise above hate and madness

with hope in his fist

run with light of God

never before never again

Listen to the Rain

Tonight the moon smiled on me

Street lamp light my path

with his gloomy shine

try to convince me

yesterday i so confused

i dont know right or wrong

i hold alot of anger inside this chest

i try to spill out but i can't

my throat whisper on you

call you

and the rain come

singing for me

remind me that you wasn't her

clean my mind

smack me in the face

you crush my world

make me crazy on you

but when i listen to the rain

everything burn

yes...

listen to the rain

in the gloomy night

was my cure from you

heal my wounds from your fangs

it's all because the rain

message from the Creator

to answer my pray....

Crazy Heart

Shit....

i walk in shadow of my own

walk around in limbo world

sun in night

moon in day

wrong is right

right is wrong

make me sick

you throw me

into this shit

with your whisper

make me soft as jelly

singing mellow song

stop the crap

i want my life back

my brute life

when i enjoyed in my own world

spent all day

with my shit

you steal my world

and make me

crazy heart

just take me away from this madness

Lord give me your hand

shine my world again

and save me from this Eternal

Bleed

this blood still warm

spill out from tender flesh

and the smell stab the air

you stab me

again and again

is enough already

i try to bare it as long as i can

but this is too much

when i try to heal my wounds

and prevent the anger inside this broken chest

i got some whisper

and tell me

that you're bleeding too

more worse than me

bleed that can never be erased

and stop by time

bleed inside the heart

the worst ever

and is not about love

that something more

bleed inside the heart....

UnderDog

sometimes i walk with

the wealth folks

sometimes i walk with

the poor one

i have to learn life

from both

of them

how to survive and

face the world

and mixed

it with my own way

to become the king

you must start

from lowest outsider

from nothing to something

from enforcer to Don

that's me now

the underdog kid

learn how to be

Timber Wolf

Fallen

Yesterday world is cold and empty

like field of ice

no sun,no shine

people dying

no hope

no future

tonight come fallen star

answer pray from dying people

answer a little hope in their heart

in frozen mouth

in empty eyes

a little fire brake

the shield of ice

give some wind

in drowning boat

there is always hope

we just only open our eyes

open our heart

and see the world once again

Fallen son: The boy who fall

one day,the boy running in the fields
the boy falls in the hole
no one help
no one know

the boy cry

the boy bleeding

until the night come

the boy not feel pain

anymore

he climbs the hole

but failed

he try agains

and agains

but he never surrenders

to see his home

to see his family

he must life

and back to his family

until the break dawn

and erase the cold night

Whisper

Yesterday was fairy tale
my dreams come true
i spent my day with my sister
we laugh together
in land of dream
till...

i see dark clouds
i hanging in giant iron
i feel ripe out
my chest slashed into piece
i can't breath
and i heard whisper
he said he angel
and he knows me
when he whispers
the air feels so cold

and gloom
i see my mother
my family
and the whole of my life
just like scene from memory

round in my eyes and my mind
is creep when whispers sound in my ears
cold and gloomy....

Remuk

Hari itu aku tak pernah berharap bertemu kau...
Kau terus memperhatikanku dengan bola matamu yang bulat
dari kejauhan itu terlihat seperti lampu horizon
menerangi kapal yang hilang arah
tanpa kusadari kau menjeratku
dengan senyummu
dengan tawamu
bisikanmu saat itu
membuatku gila
seperti morphin meracuni otakku
membutakan aku dengan bisamu
luka ini semakin perih saat kau menghancurkan mimpi yang kau bangun

dan aku yang mulai terbuai didalamnya
saat aku belajar untuk mengerti dirimu
apa maumu
saat ini semua sudah remuk
remuk...

dan aku belajar menyusun semua serpihan yang tersisa
dan remuk ini..
seperti janjiku saat melihat malaikat dihari yang kelabu itu
apapun yang terjadi aku akan tetap berjalan meskipun tubuh dan pikiran ini remuk
ya remuk.....

when you look me in the eye

Yesterday...I live my life without any perception
Without any hope
It just flow to the stream
But yesterday i meet you
i see your eyes
you see mine
i see sorrow in your round eyes
i heard you whisper on me
like blow of gentle wind
your tender voice flirt me
your eyes crush me
your face stab me
Oh shit...
Now i falling on your bare foot
Fill my day with your shiny smile
and when you look me in the eye..
there's something more...

HOLLOW

I want to say thanks you become my friend.

I want to say thanks for accompany me.

I miss when we laugh together.

Now everything change

you ignoring me without reason

so is your answer to me.

I want to say thanks for time with you

and say my last word to you d....

Blue sky

July 2010. Is my best day ever. I graduate from high school and i accepted in one of precious University in Indonesia with my best friend too acompanny me. I think my life gonna pass in the dark forever. I always think there's no hope for me my future crush down. I live in blackest night. But that day everything change away. I find my life again everything i pray is fullfil. I pray again to GOD and say sorry if i disspointed HIM. Sky is not always dark. Today the sky look calm n soft. I hope i always see my blue sky =)

Midsummer Night

Januari 2007, kala pertama kali aku mengenalnya takpernah terlintas dipikiranku. Dia sama seperti orang2 laen disekitarku. Hidup emang sempit aku jalani hari2ku dengannya dan kami pun saling berbagi cerita hidup. Aku merasa sangat nyaman berada disampingnya.Hari demi hari aku lalui aku melihat senyum dan air matanya jatuh. Meskipun kami tidak terikat suatu hubungan yang resmi kami terikat satu sama lain melalui ikatan batin. Sampai suatu hari kami harus terpisahkan oleh waktu. Untuk pertama dan terakhir kalinya dia mengucapkan selamat tinggal no..... Aku tidak akan pernah melupakan sosoknya dan dia akan selalu hidup dihatiku. Aku tidak akan pernah melupakan malam itu malam dimana kami saling terikat. Midsummer night......